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Profile!
Hi, I'm Si Jie, people who has known me for long call me Si Jie, Shi Jie, Jie Ah or any other creative name.(:
I love hanging out at East Coast Park, enjoying the sea breeze and listening to the sound of the wave. :D
I enjoy chilling with friends and value our friendship.
I spend most of my free time listening to music, surfing the net, watching drama as well as hanging out with friends.
I'm Random, Outgoing, Friendly, Approachable and Loud.
Always mistaken as being too playful and not serious, but doing so makes manys' dull life becomes more interesting.
Some may say that I'm Fierce >.<
I am Emotional at times. I think a lot but I'm not good at expressing myself with words.
Thats who I am.
Overall I'm a nice Girl.=)
Emo~ness will strike me someday...
About Me!
As I grow older,
I realised that a lot of things changes,
let alone me, myself.
Its another transition stage of my life,
to become more mature in my thinkings,
another stage for me to start blogging.
Instead of writing about the mundane actions that I do everyday,
I'll be writing about my unexpressed thoughts, feelings and words which is usually left unspoken.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
Will ppl understand?... wad is sadness tat is fill with hurts?If memories were eraseable, i would use a huge eraser tO erase e part of my memories away ...This entry will be in black colour...The purpose of me using this colour is to clear or shld i say erase that sad memories away and i wan tO start life brand new... Those hurting feelings n memories from getting on with my life and AFFECT my life.I hate it>>>Ytd nite... i hav been thinking of that incident again and i was thinking of whether i shld bring a camera to sch n snap down those memories which i had wif them... in e library, eng block, places which we had our lessons... tut, lec n lab and e places where we went to had our lunch n snacks...These days, i cant slp and is all due to that incident which keep occuring in my mind. When ever the silent night come by, e silent causes mie to recll all thse again n again and it makes mie lose my tears... " " "Another thing... tat PRESENT? is it still tat precious to mie? yes or no? . . . . . IS IT?that present was nO longer precious to mie...Whenever i had e feelings of opening e present, i would force myself to nOt tink abt it...isnt it abit silly?is an object n it is nOt invisible... juz hope tat 1 day i wake up, it will be gone!The feelings of fear opening up e present n saw their faces... their faces!Let mie say this again...dun anyhow blame ppl for e things which i nv did at all...n it is u who is at fault n it is u who goes ard telling ppl... STOP ALL THESE!We r sitting at eng block no. 10 de lst bench...cos we wanted to buy bread... e machine bread...(we r hungry)Then when they had all bought their bread, which means i dun hav e feeling tat i wanted to eat...but... i thought of eating suddenly...i placed my money, a $2 notes inside which belong to shan2...n it keeps coming out...so i keep placing it inside...i ask them whether they gt any $2 notes notes cos some notes r more easily placed in then others.dun hav... e ans from themplaced e notes inside e 3rd time n...it's didnt come out nor was e amt shown...i told them, e machine suck my notes. all reply were different...Qy: she came to help mie bu stuffing some rough paper inside but then it doesnt work...as for janice: her reply was rather shocking, it was only a $2 notes n nOt a million dollars(she didnt say it onli once!)... at tat time, i was really shock by wad she say... but i keept quiet... i dun wan to find troubles...NO CHOICE... saw a guy... huda's frenzhe taught me to go to one stop station...i went to e one-stop station n ask them wad i can dO ...they ask mie to call e no. on e machine n tell them...did nth...went to engi hall 1 with them n then back hm...nite time, i phone e person...tell them wad happen...They send a cheque to mie lye after 3 weeks... lolalrite...but... after this incident... i really cant slp...wrote these on my blog...n they saw...NEXT DAY... seems lye a v weird day,there is lye a lot of staring incident n i speak nth...in maths lec...i tink these incident pass from a mouth tO a lot of mouths...on n on this goes...LAST LESSON OF E DAY...she scolded me... i didnt heard qy came to tell miewas shock la... say nth...she was at e door there...n she started these again..."wo hen tao yan si jie"okay... wadeva... i keep quiet n pretended i nv heard...then...After sch, went to e same place... eng block 10they bought bread... i didnt... cos scared tat e machine is spoilt n then sux my $ again...went to e engi blk 25, breadboard to bought fries... 7 parkets...on e way back, serene pass mie janice's drink,help her holdhanded it to janice...n she didnt thanks mie or wadsoeva n gave mie e looks...from tat day on...there's is like a lot of msn talking...i wanted tO speak my hearts out... e fault lies in U n not mie...stop letting mie be ur scapegoat for 3 mths+!!!n thes led to somethings which i find it quite funny...with things such as mie irritating poping out from janice's mouth...she say she ask ard n find a lot of ppl say tat i'm irritating...was shocked at wad she say...cos she say...ppl finds u really v irritating...then i ask her...how u nOe? then she reply... ask la...these continue...slowly... i tink 'she' gt influence...to mie 'she' is a nice person but after hearing wad she say me tat i let her be scapegoat...was really shocked mie off... when did i let u be a scapegoat...? I don tink i shld tink sO much...True friends are really hard to find, those who can share their joy & laughter with U n gave u warm hug when u r nOt alrite!Although i don hav tat, i hav life... e precious life tat y mum hav given to me... i will really take care of myself... The one n only ME!Thought of going to e chalet cos of those friendly guys in my class but not those who gossips...Y gals gossip n NOT guys? . . .LIFE IS LIKE A PLAY WHERE THERE IS UP N DOWN...I GOT TO PICK UP THOSE PIECES AND CONTINUE WITH MY LIFE...
